The Heart of Worship

Man, it has almost been a year since I wrote on this! I had intentions of writing more, life just got in the way. My apologies!

I just finished running a few minutes ago and while I was running I was reminded of the song "The Heart of Worship" written by Matt Redman. I first heard the story of this song when I was in highschool. You should look it up. It was written at a time in Matt's church when they had forgotten the meaning of worship. They were caught up in the sound of the songs they were singing and his pastor decided to take the 'music makers' away and they only sang with their voices. Out of that time, Matt wrote the beautiful song we now sing today. Worship is not about what we get from it, its not about being entertained or feeling good. Its not about good music or getting fit (that will make sense later). Worship is about the outcry of our hearts and showing love to our creator; its about thanking Him for all blessings in life for we are so undeserving. Worship is about being aware of the fact that we cannot live this life without Christ and acknowledging it. I was reminded of this song because my run tonight reminded me of why I began to love running. Three and a half years ago I began a love for running. First it began as a way to get back into shape as I had taken my first semester of college off of working out but it shortly became a time to clear my thoughts, work through things, and really talk to God. At the time I was really struggling with some family stuff and running became my way of dealing with it. Running became a time of true worship for me. I would rely on God to help me perservere not only physically but also emotionally and spiritually. While running I could really sense God's presence and beauty all around me no matter what life was throwing my way. It continued this way for awhile, about a year and a half to two years. Then came the time I needed to fit into a wedding dress and running became a way to lose weight and look good for the big day. Running became less about spending time with God and more about just me. Let me tell you for me, running needs to be about something greater than myself because if not then it doesn't end up happening. For the first eight months of our marriage running was put on the back burner. Now that I have decided to get back into the swing of things with running I have found that I haven't been quite as motivated as I was a few short years ago. Why? Because I had forgotten the one reason running was a joy to me and that was because I was leaving God out of it. See tonight I was not going to run, I was working around the house and thought about just continuing house work but having a few things on my mind I decided to go and I am glad I did. I was able to think through some things and really be honest. I enjoyed running for the first time in a while and that was because I was able to reach back into why I loved it in the first place. I hope to be able to hold on to this revalation as I continue to get back to the heart of worshipping Christ not only in this area but all areas in my life.

" The Heart of Worship" by Matt Redman

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something thats of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to a heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
Your looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

It's all about You Jesus